Well its me John. Im not really sure what to tell myself about the future. I am to concerned about the past and how things turn out the way I never wanted them to but I guess everything happens for a reason and its to late to go back and change things now. I guess by the time I am 30 its going to be to late to do anything I said when I was 18 but I will give it a shot. Well hopefully I will be out of collage and be pretty much settled down maybe have a good girl and a kid or two. Not really worried about the kids right now but I wouldn't mind having a good girl. I should probably start listening to my mom cause everything she tells me is pretty much right. She gives me good advice but i'm always retarded and never listen.I guess I don't have anything to tell myself cause you cant prepare for life you just gotta kinda take it as it comes and deal with it cause that is life i guess.

My freshmen year coach rhoads told are class a story. It was about his dream and that jason was trying to kill him and he was hiding in the tree with a rocket launcher. Then after that he gave are class doughnuts just to make it even better. thanks coach Rhoads for my fav memories.

I think the swine flu is really bad I guess. All the symptoms seem bad getting sick blah blah blah and you could die. But to be honest i am not really to worried about it. I guess its cause im human and i am oblivious and i don't really wanna think that there is a "virus" that could possibly kill me just because i touched a dirty door knob or i took a breath of somebody's air. It just doesnt seem fair that something as precious as life can be taken away because of ignorance and not wanting except that fact that I need to take certain precautions to protect myself and the people i care about.